OH my goodness i dont even know where to start this week. Mom, thank you SOOOOO much for the package. Sorella simkins didn't get anything from her family so the party favors were perfect! You went above and beyond just like always. Thanks though for real. I know that meant so much to her. When i have a chance i will print off pics of our party and send them to you. it was great! So, this week has been a crazy week. I hit rock bottom last tuesday. We had a devotional and i felt so inadequate. it was terrible. Such a good talk but basically he was talking so stern to us the ENTIRE time and i guess i am just too sensative. I also was dealing with a sinus infection that night and had the thought of having to leave because of my back (don't worry it really is doing good the thought just crossed my mind.). THis night seemed like the worst thing ever. However, little did i know the lord had his hand in the whole thing. I was walking back to my room and ran into Tyler, bryce's friend that works here. I saw him and totally lost it. I just cried to him and he took me aside and talked to me. I needed to see him that night. It was the first time and i had seen him and it couldn't have been more perfect timing. It was such a testimony to me that the Lord really cares so individually for all his children. He knew that is what i needed that night to get me through. Tyler also came and found me the next day and gave me a blessing with elder vitali to get better quickly. I am 100% better now and it is great!
So later that night, after i saw tyler, i prayed probably the most sincere prayer i have ever prayed. I was broken. I needed the atonement to heal me and help me know that with the lords help, i am adequate for this calling to be a missionary. It was amazing, i said amen and the exact scripture i needed came to my head. "Peace be unto thy soul, thine adversities and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment..." That passage. It was amazing! I needed that testimony that not only does the lord hear my prayers but he is ready to answer us. SInce that prayer, my week has been great! It still is the hardest thing i have ever done but i know i can do it. I know while i am here in the MTC it is going to be so important for me to really learn every day a little bit more how to use the atonement and turn everything over to the lord. I don't do this work by myself. i need to learn how to really do my best and then put the rest in my savior's hands. It is something that is crucial for me to learn and remember throughout my whole life.
So about my infection really quick. I felt sick for like a week and finally my branch president told me to go to the health clinic and get taken care of. I thought they were just going to tell me that i had a cold and to wait it out. Nope, just a nice little sinus infection. i got some antibiotics and a blessing and im good. SOOOO much better.
I also had an interview with my morning teacher that i love so much earlier this week. its was so comforting. he promised me that my italian would be better than his when i get home. i need to hear that. As much as i try and not worry about it, i do because i know that i need that tool when i go to italy and bring HIs children unto christ. The lord knows when i am going to learn italian though. I need to remember that he is the one that called me to italy. 1 Ne. 3:7. the lord wouldn't command me to do something that he knew i coudln't do. So i will keep working at it! and i know he will help me and give me words when i need them. My teacher also told me that he can tell i am genuinely trying to help my companion. He told me that she is different, we all know that, but all we can do is love her. Its hard. I love her though. And each day it gets better. She just needs to learn and take advantage of the MTC. She thinks the time here is worthless for her but really the MTC is not about the language. There is so much we can all learn here and she just needs to catch the vision.
OH and this week the italian zone all sang the efy song (sisters in zion and armies of helaman) in sacrament and in the departing missionary fireside. it was the coolest thing ever! Oh my there is so much power in that when you have 30 missionaries singing it! The older 2 districts left to italy today. That was weird. now we are going to be the old missionaries when the new ones come in in 3 weeks. I don't feel like we will ever be at there level but hopefully we will be close! They are all going to Milan so it was sad to say bye to them!
Ok, now some business. Dad bob, i don't knwo what to do about the W2. ... Someone at home, can you go in my room, get in my scripture bag and get the $40 out? I forgot to pay my tithing! I just remembered yesterday. Anyway, if you could get $40 in for me that would be great! Also, dad rick, could you type up my call story from mark and send it to me? I just want that to be something i have with me my whole mission. I would appreciate that so much! OH and sometime could you send me a pack of socks before i go? Just some white ankle ones. i have already lost 2 pairs ahah. I don't know how i thought 6 pairs was going to be enough for me. Thank you all for the support and letters you send every week. I really can't tell you how much it means to me to hear how life is back at home. it makes it so much easier. It sounds like everything has been good this week. Io so che la chiesa e vera! I love you all so much! You are the best family anyone could ask for! keep writing! Have a great week and i will write you next tuesday! Sorry they are always so random. and im sure i miss so much every week! The timer is so intimidating though!!!!
P.S. i hope park city was fun and that you thought of me while you were gone! I want to hear about it! OH and also, i haven't been able to get letters since friday so if i didn't answer questions or anything im sorry! I will write you back next week! Hopefully i get a lot of mail today from the weekend :) LOVE YOU!!!!!!! and MISS YOU!!!!!